Seeking Experience

One of the things I am noticing is just how many teachers, authors, speakers, etc. I have created in my hologram to remind me of what it is I already know. Just this morning , I was listening to another one I had never heard of before, who was not only telling me what I already knew, but was naming another half-dozen or so authors and bloggers and speakers and teachers who I had never heard of whose message was also the same. These people are everywhere!

What is this message? Simply put, we are not our thoughts, we are not our feelings, we are not our sensations; we are the infinite awareness in which all that happens.

There is a quantum physicist on island who has proven mathematically that all atoms are actually black holes. Chew on that one for a while! We even have scientific proof that matter doesn’t actually exist, or at least it doesn’t exist in the way we thought it did. This is a world of dreams, and I am the dreamer.

So why is this post titled the way it is? Because instead of resting in pure awareness, I have been looking for, and waiting for, an experience of resting in pure awareness. I am the wave seeking a reunion with the ocean, instead of noticing there is no way to be separate from the ocean, and just enjoying the ride.

And guess what? My seeking has also been perfectly occurring within awareness. Nothing can happen outside of awareness. It’s just another thing to be noticed. What wants to make it wrong (or right) is the same seeking mechanism that I am writing about here. The same mechanism that thinks the separate self is an actual object, an object to be perfected, to have experiences, to eventually realize truth. Even science has proven that this separate self doesn’t exist.

I am the ocean. I am the wave as well, resting in the knowing that there is no separation.