Once again, I have been dealing with a trio of difficult physical symptoms. One of these symptoms has been some very persistent headaches. Now the last time this happened, which was about two years ago, I was able to actually say, “No more headaches,” and they instantly vanished. Why haven’t I been able to do that this time around? Why haven’t I banished the other physical symptoms as well?
I am very clear as to how I was able to banish the headaches so effectively two years ago. Through a series of synchronistic events, I was catapulted into a place where my ego, my self-center, moved out of the way almost completely, and I knew without a doubt that it was well within my power, and in total alignment, to simply say, “No more headaches.” It was as natural as breathing, and it was no big deal.
But I, meaning my ego, did not control this event. I didn’t decide I was going to do this. Up to that point, I was simply following the energy, allowing whatever input came my way, to be, and to follow what felt appropriate. I did a lot less filtering and controlling than I would usually do in such cases at that point in my life. Some things felt right, some felt out of balance, some felt harmless enough, but nothing seemed to work in terms of being headache-free.
The healing was a spontaneous event, unplanned and unanticipated. It was very similar to another event that had happened a few months previously, when I experienced the ego simply rolling itself up into a ball and moving completely out of the way, leaving utter aware spaciousness (that’s the best I can do with words to describe that mystery). I didn’t plan that one either – it just happened.
So the next question is, why not banish the headaches now, like I did last time? Well, I could say, “No more headaches,” like I did before, and actually, I have said that. Not surprisingly, it didn’t work.
I watched a DVD two days ago called, “The Quantum Activist,” about quantum mechanics through the eyes of Amit Goswami, a “visionary scientist.” In this DVD, Goswami discussed this exact situation as it related to manifesting. What he said was that trying to manifest from the ego would not work, but if a person could enter the quantum field, described as being a non-egoic, creative space, then anything was possible. He said that if our individual intentions resonate with non-local (quantum) consciousness, then intentions can come true.
It seemed quite synchronistic that this was the main theme of this DVD. Again, the question remained – how do we enter this field of quantum consciousness? Well, truthfully, we’ve never left it. Our egos, as part of doing its job, is constantly seeking something, and in this case, it is seeking a state of consciousness in which it is the very obstacle to experiencing! The ultimate irony.
Interestingly enough, Goswami offered two steps to moving into that non-egoic, infinitely creative space. 1) Preparation – seeing what is already known, through various methods of accumulating knowledge and experience (meditation, study, discussions, etc.); and, 2) Incubation. In other words, you sit on it! You wait! In my words, you remain alert until your script, as written by you, presents the opening for and the allowance of quantum consciousness.
This is exactly what happened to me the first time. I allowed whatever came my way to be, and continually noticed what was being presented. This is not so easy when you are in pain, but I felt I had no choice, really. Then, when the timing was perfect, the quantum field presented itself, and the intention was realized.
This incubation period allows for possibilities to grow. For awhile, I was giving myself a hard time for not being able to reach that place again from where manifesting is natural and harmonious. This DVD helped me remember that “I” cannot go there, “I” can only search for it.
Meanwhile, I remain alert, allowing the possibilities to grow, and know that this egoless field of infinite consciousness will reveal itself in its own perfect timing. It cannot do otherwise, since it is the one place I have never left.
See you there!