You’ve led me on a merry chase, you have!
I could never have imagined a more clever foe,
in this ultimate game of hide and seek.
Every possible obstacle, you placed in my path;
Every blind alley, I was compelled to explore;
Your disguises were infinitely creative,
to trick me in every conceivable way;
And believe me, they all worked- every one!
Your infinite creativity has had me…
in total despair,
in utter joy;
What emotion has gone unfelt (or unresisted),
by this person called “I?”
Where have I not gone,
seeking after you,
knowing you were right around the corner,
at the end of this book,
at the end of this meditation
in India, in Europe, in Mexico, in Hawaii;
I just knew I could lure you out of hiding,
if I just tried hard enough,
if I found the right path,
if I just meditated long enough,
if I did exactly what the guru/teacher said,
if I was sincere enough,
if I pretended well enough.
You were nowhere to be found.
I didn’t know how you could have escaped my seeking,
but you did.
And there came a moment in time
when I knew I would never find you.
I gave up seeking.
I gave up.
Now, here you are.
You found the cleverest hiding place of all –
You never left home base!
That whole time I was chasing after you,
trying to find you,
seeking for you until I thought I would burst with the longing;
There you were.
Just hanging around home base,
waiting, patiently, lovingly,
allowing me my search,
knowing all the time
that you would never leave me,
could never leave me,
that we had never been, and could never be, apart;
that you were always closer to me,
than my own skin.
Your sense of irony never fails!
Now that I’ve found you,
I sense you everywhere –
in the trees,
in the call of the shama thrush,
in the news of the day,
in all the appearances in my awareness,
in the faces of my friends,
in the eyes of my wife;
where are you not?
I can’t not find you now.
The one I can’t find,
is the “me” who was searching!
We are ever one and the same.
The seeker, the sought and the seeking,