Making Room

Over the past several weeks, I have let go of three prominent components in my life. These components had given me much comfort, identification and recognition over many years, and I enjoyed each of them.

So why would I let them go?

Because when I tuned in to my inner guidance, I could feel that they were clogging my energy field, not allowing for new energy to emerge. When I realized this fully, I knew if I wanted to continue in the direction I had decided was most important to me, these items had to go, one at a time.

The first thing I let go of was a certain podcast I listened to whenever I had a chance. If I was doing a so-called mindless chore, or if I was taking a walk by myself, I would tune in to this podcast. The show made me laugh pretty consistently, as well as dealing with the more interesting aspects of sports, and I really wanted that. However, at a certain point I knew I was using the show as a crutch, as it was filling up the emptiness, which I could see I was avoiding.

It wasn’t easy at first to stop listening to it, but I decided to give it up permanently. I only missed it for a few days, actually, and I could see that the show had also been lowering my frequency. Maintaining my frequency has become all-important in the last year or so, so I have no regrets about this particular letting go.

The second component was a whole lot tougher. I had been a Certified Facilitator of Scott Kiloby’s Living Inquiries for several years. I even worked at the Kiloby Center in Palm Desert for 10 months, and had formed some deep and enjoyable relationships with Scott and several others involved in the LI community. I was still contributing to the community in a number of ways, and was listed on the website as a certified facilitator. But for the past few months, I couldn’t escape the feeling in my gut that this too had to be released. The feeling was not very specific, just that it was important to do to make room for something new to arrive. At this point I was recognizing this feeling of creating space in my energy fields, so I took the leap and wrote to Scott of my desire to be taken off the facilitator lists.

My appreciation for the Living Inquiries remains profound, and if at some point I work with people again, I will use the tools I learned in whatever I do. I also use the tools on myself, as I find what I learned extremely useful. But this identification with being an LI facilitator had to go.

The third thing to go is still a work in progress. I have been playing all kinds of sports for most of my life, and it has been a source of much joy, all kinds of intensity and much fulfillment for me. In addition to playing sports, I have been an avid follower of professional sports teams for as long as I can remember. I have loved following my teams, mostly the New York ones, and I have been checking up on them every day. But lately I have been noticing the enjoyment aspect has been lacking, as the reality of professional sports has changed drastically since my childhood. I do not watch sports on TV any longer, and have restricted my interest to reading the internet. I had found myself wondering why I was spending any of my time on these folks, as the frequency I was encountering was not a very high one. I could feel that by not following sports on the internet, I was making more room in my being for hearing my inner guidance.

So this is day eight of not looking at any of the sports sites on the internet. This would have been unthinkable just a month or so ago. I still feel the urge to look in on the NY teams on these sites, but I know this is the right thing for now, so I don’t.  Perhaps I wouldn’t be writing blog right now if I had looked in, and in fact I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t be.

I don’t feel I am depriving myself of anything. In fact, the main feeling I have is one of gratitude, gratitude for my inner guidance and gratitude for me, in that I listened to it! I can feel the infinite space inside much more vividly now, and I have received many gifts as I do. I am so looking forward to seeing what else arrives in my inner space now that I have made more room.




9 thoughts on “Making Room

  1. Courageous & inspiring. Now you have me primed to inspect my life through the lens of high / low frequency habits. I wonder whether reading will make the cut…. L😀L …😉

  2. These things got cut out because it felt right to do so – I didn’t go searching for things to cut out! Especially when they made me laugh. Thanks for the feedback, Debbi. Always appreciated.

  3. Why must we always fill the space inside ourselves so urgently? Why are we afraid of stillness and quiet? Thank you for sharing your courage and determination, Paul, to hold that space open and free!

  4. Hello Paul

    Thank you for writing such an insightful blog post. I work at a holistic institute and your post certainly resonated with me as a topic similar to those I come across in my work.

    I found your blog when doing a google of my last name – Galewitz. Until recently the only persons I noted with the last name Galewitz were relatives of mine. If you are willing perhaps we might explore whether we have a familial connection.

    Eve Galewitz
    Orange, Connecticut

      1. evegalewitz

        Will do – and apologies for responding 2x – I thought my message had not gone thru. Feel free to delete.

    1. Chris

      Hello Paul,
      I am curious about your opinion regarding this post. Maybe it’s me, or maybe it’s a limitation of what language is capable of. it seems like your trying to squash old habits to make room for something else to come in. But what’s the difference?
      I have been curious about this seemingly contradiction with teachers. as soon as they teach a skill, or practice, like Scott with the living inquiries. Instantly I feel like I have to do that, and succeed at whatever given practice, to get further along, like it’s leading up to something.
      But that seems so heavy; to feel that i need to do something to get somewhere else, to get further down the path or ‘someday liberated’ or whatever.
      You’ve given up following sports teams. Could a person just give up the desire to give up anything? Go left or right or up or down, what’s the difference? you can’t go wrong! Or am I wrong??

      1. Hi Chris – nice to hear from you! Yes, seeking in any form can be a total drag. My attitude towards techniques now is I do them until I don’t – meaning that I will only do them until the time they don’t serve me anymore. And the “serving me” portion of that means to help me be present in each and every moment.
        We don’t need to get anywhere – we just have the opportunity to see where we already are, and to see who we already are.
        As for the following sports part, it looks like sports gave up on me! But seriously, I could see how following sports the way I had been was bringing my frequency down, and I didn’t like that one little bit.
        Following your own inner guidance on this and all matters is what’s most important anyway, Chris. All the best to you!

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